A reflection on my past and present craziness

To start with, I do not believe I am crazy. I hate it when people say, "Oh, that's Karin, she's crazy." Seriously, can't we work on a new term. How about eccentric? That sounds so much nicer to me.

Enough digression. So, how is this pregnancy different then my last? With my oldest son (I can't believe I just typed that in!), I took a pregnancy test the Friday before Father's Day. The fertility clinic requires a pregnancy test regardless if you had a period or not because fertility drugs can cause crazy bad mutations if you take them while pregnant. So I called up the fertility clinic and asked if I could come in early for my blood test. The nice nurse on the other end of the line tells me that the drugs I took could make a false positive and I need to wait until Monday, when I was scheduled. So at this point I freak out thinking I have a false positive pregnancy test. So what did I do? I proceeded to take TWO pregnancy tests EVERY DAY until my scheduled appointment on Monday. That's seven pregnancy tests. Yes, I know, crazy.

This time around, I took my first pregnancy test on Saturday night at around midnight. This was the old school kind that I think are really easy to misread although mine was really hard to misinterpret. Anyways, I go and get a few more pregnancy tests and take another one the next morning (Sunday). This one was digital which gave me a better feeling. Then for good measure, I took another one the next morning (Monday). Monday is the beautiful day when my doctor's office opens and I assume that I can come in for a blood test to confirm pregnancy. TRY AGAIN!

My doctor, who I love and would not change for anything, does not see pregnant patients until after they are seven weeks. NO!!! I can't wait seven weeks to confirm something a $2 pee stick confirmed. Yes, the digitals are more expensive but I got them on sale, stay focused here.

So now I have a dilemma. Do I take a pregnancy test every day to ease my mind or do I put on my big girl pants and wait it out? I'm waiting it out. Today, I did not take a pregnancy test, and I am very proud of myself. Still, every time I feel a little wet (*Boys/Men ask your girlfriend/ wife what I mean by wet if you want a full debriefing) I freak out thinking my period has just started. So far though, no period, just hungry and tired with a little bit of nausea for fun.

I probably will take one once a week though, still that's better than twice a day. :)